I’m falling; faster than the very speed of light.
I was gone but I’m back now I’ve finally seen the light.
I didn’t know every day of this life would be a fight.
But I’m ready; believe.
I watch people fly by like they’re falling from the stars.
I see them staring out their window as they’re driving in their cars.
They don’t know that what they’re looking for is really only ours.
But we own this; forever.
Remember when we used to sing and dance on all the while;
When we were too cool to care whether we broke the kitchen tiles.
We were so young; so foolish. We were heading for a file.
But we made it; Untouchable.
Watch the world go flying by;
Join in with all the rest.
Give everything a little try,
And do your very best.
Don’t leave a single stone unturned;
You might just miss the truth.
You’ll never find the animal,
That’s hidden in your youth.
The tide is turned.
The night is young.
We’re all so lost,
But having fun.
The light is gone.
I’m next to you.
Let’s count our sheep;
Colour them blue.
The gold may rust,
But we don’t change.
This life we lead,
Is very strange.
Take your aim,
Along the range.
We’ll find ourselves,
Or find our pain.
Dark times are easy with you by my side.
But when the tide comes in, we’ll surely ride.
All that I am is falling apart.
The trees that we plant; they fell from the start.
The city burns so bright,
In the middle of the night.
I am standing nowhere;
I’m a big teddy bear, and a fond money maker.
If you bear that in mind you can call me Ted Baker,
All the shirts that I have worn, are tearing at the seams;
Every night I lay down and I swallow empty dreams.
I am falling;
Blue coloured beetles pass blatantly by.
This huffing and puffing is making me cry.
Why does everything that kills me only make me feel alive?
I try; I will survive
I am losing;
A peach covered panda;
A coconuts kiss.
My name is not trusted.
Ignorance is bliss.
Lose yourself in emptiness;
Try to treat the pain.
We lost our minds is selfishness,
To try to stop the rain.
Where is the ghost of night times past,
The holy ghost of truth?
The spirit of an animal,
Is hidden in our youth.
Black and blue they beat us down.
Fight them back; turn life around.
A year ago today, I was a baby to the world.
Getting more or less my freedom back to watch the earth begin to curl.
A year ago today, I was a new fish in the sea.
I had no hope or love in anything; wanted only to be free.
A year ago today, all I wanted was to smoke.
As the days went by I watched the Earth and laughed at every joke.
A year ago today, I realised that I was none.
I wanted more than just to fuck my head with any giving gun.
A year ago today, I tried my hardest not to leave.
But I couldn’t find my way alone on a path I could achieve.
A year ago today, I was a very different kid.
Today I am a man in all and after all we did,
We never reached the highest heights; we are still yet to soar.
But without you standing by my side this life is such a boar.
A year ago today I was discharged from a psychiatric hospital, a life changing experience that helped me understand who I am and what I want from life. It also destroyed me, and effectively restarted my journey as a human being, frim eighteen years old.
I’m feel better now.
I no longer need your prayers.
Thank you & God bless you all.
Wanting much more, but I can’t find the time.
Wanting to write, but I can’t find a rhyme.
We’re wondering over the world we can see.
Behind us we miss so much opportunity.
Chocolate cake, crystals, and flowers that bloom.
I broke my old Ipod; never had a Zune.
These pictures we paint are beginning to dry.
I try not to cry.
I don’t want to die.
Brown paper packages, loose without string;
Losing the will to keep my favourite things.
Stumbling over sleeping bodies whilst losing your vision.
Vomit around the bowl of the toilet.
A ringing in your ear echoes the base of the club speakers.
Your memory is dull.
You look forward to smiling about the night before,
But you can’t hack it yet.
You friends all love you and you’ve had a nice time.
You don’t need to say a word at all to worlds you’re yet to climb.
Everything is bliss and we are falling into place.
We’re falling through the stratosphere; through all of time and space.
But we fly about the world as we go drifting through the sky.
We never fall down from the stars; we’re always very high.
You look on forward to the world; the sky will surely gleam.
Look on forward to your life, now you are nineteen.
Happy birthday Benny. Don’t ever change.