I’m falling; faster than the very speed of light.
I was gone but I’m back now I’ve finally seen the light.
I didn’t know every day of this life would be a fight.
But I’m ready; believe.
I watch people fly by like they’re falling from the stars.
I see them staring out their window as they’re driving in their cars.
They don’t know that what they’re looking for is really only ours.
But we own this; forever.
Remember when we used to sing and dance on all the while;
When we were too cool to care whether we broke the kitchen tiles.
We were so young; so foolish. We were heading for a file.
But we made it; Untouchable.
Watch the world go flying by;
Join in with all the rest.
Give everything a little try,
And do your very best.
Don’t leave a single stone unturned;
You might just miss the truth.
You’ll never find the animal,
That’s hidden in your youth.
The tide is turned.
The night is young.
We’re all so lost,
But having fun.
The light is gone.
I’m next to you.
Let’s count our sheep;
Colour them blue.
The gold may rust,
But we don’t change.
This life we lead,
Is very strange.
Take your aim,
Along the range.
We’ll find ourselves,
Or find our pain.
Dark times are easy with you by my side.
But when the tide comes in, we’ll surely ride.
Where we go and where we are,
Is only down to us.
We lift our fire to the stars;
We hold on to our trust.
You weave yourself around my soul;
My all and every word.
You rewrite every single goal;
You’re everything I’ve heard.
I try so hard to keep you blind;
The treasure of my life.
I need to keep it from your eyes;
Until we face our strife.
The key to my heart; you climbed the charts.
My number one right from the start.
All that I am is falling apart.
The trees that we plant; they fell from the start.
The city burns so bright,
In the middle of the night.
I am standing nowhere;
I’m a big teddy bear, and a fond money maker.
If you bear that in mind you can call me Ted Baker,
All the shirts that I have worn, are tearing at the seams;
Every night I lay down and I swallow empty dreams.
I am falling;
Blue coloured beetles pass blatantly by.
This huffing and puffing is making me cry.
Why does everything that kills me only make me feel alive?
I try; I will survive
I am losing;
A peach covered panda;
A coconuts kiss.
My name is not trusted.
Ignorance is bliss.
Lose yourself in emptiness;
Try to treat the pain.
We lost our minds is selfishness,
To try to stop the rain.
Where is the ghost of night times past,
The holy ghost of truth?
The spirit of an animal,
Is hidden in our youth.
Black and blue they beat us down.
Fight them back; turn life around.
I’m losing my vision; eternally blind.
I’ve lost my old ways to get out of a bind.
We’re learning so much, but we never saw past,
A way we could live, that would surely last.
Over the mountains, if you listen close,
You’ll hear a dim whisper; beneath ice and snow.
Never to be located; hibernating it seems.
I never remember how to find my own dreams.
I can’t lay awake; I can’t seem to sleep.
When all hope is lost, don’t lay down and weep.
I promise you I will be back before dawn,
And with me I’ll bring my own oncoming storm.
And the end of the rainbow, where happiness lay,
All of our troubles seem so far away.
A year ago today, I was a baby to the world.
Getting more or less my freedom back to watch the earth begin to curl.
A year ago today, I was a new fish in the sea.
I had no hope or love in anything; wanted only to be free.
A year ago today, all I wanted was to smoke.
As the days went by I watched the Earth and laughed at every joke.
A year ago today, I realised that I was none.
I wanted more than just to fuck my head with any giving gun.
A year ago today, I tried my hardest not to leave.
But I couldn’t find my way alone on a path I could achieve.
A year ago today, I was a very different kid.
Today I am a man in all and after all we did,
We never reached the highest heights; we are still yet to soar.
But without you standing by my side this life is such a boar.
A year ago today I was discharged from a psychiatric hospital, a life changing experience that helped me understand who I am and what I want from life. It also destroyed me, and effectively restarted my journey as a human being, frim eighteen years old.
I’m feel better now.
I no longer need your prayers.
Thank you & God bless you all.